Dear self,

Please take time for yourself! Slow down, try and be calm and relax.


I take on WAY to much to handle. Such as we are leaving for vacation next week. My to-do list is a million things long and I just don't have the time do complete it all. And on top of that I said yes to watching another little girl tomorrow. That puts me at 4 kids and 1 me. How is this going to work. WTF was I thinking???? 


I hope tomorrow goes smoothly and I can get some of my to-do's off. I put myself in this place. I just need to learn to say NO

Love or hate?

I have lost 5 pounds!!!!!! PUMPED I am trying very hard at this. Well minus the cookies I ate last night. Yesterday was one of those days BLAH.

I'm thinking for every 20 pounds or so I loose I will buy myself something. As of today I am thinking of these pretties:

(Nordstrom)

Feelings???? Cute or OMG UGLY

New year = New me

I hate New Years. I hate hearing all about it. I was sleeping by 11 last night. I thing mentally I am very worn out from the holidays.

So what am I going to do...... write about it on my blog :)

The things I want to improve this year are:

1. Become a better wife, mom, friend
2. Eat healthy,loose weight and get in shape
3. Read more
4. Look for the positive in things rather than the negative

I am slowing going to work on each one of these things this year. I know they will all take time but I am OK with that. I am going to try not to obsess and freak out about each one. But we shall see.

The eating healthy was put on the back burner today. I had 3 donuts and wow they were good. I swear if I was not already obsessed with cupcakes donuts might have taken over. lol

It is time I start posting more!

Well I have a 1 year old! YIKES Where did the last year go? I swear time needs to slow down. M had a great time at her party. Cupcake was the theme. Here a a few pictures from the big day.

I was hoping to go more all out. But at the end I gave up. Putting together a party like this just took over my life. It was my obsession for the month. We had 2 different parties. She is one spoiled little girl!

I am going to try and start C25K again. I need to. I need to find the motivation to get me going and keep going. Any ideas?

Crafty Mom

New obsession for the month of October.....

C25K

Yo! Today is day 1 of couch to 5k (the app rocks!). I feel great right now after working out. M was screaming her head off, the hubs was driving me nuts and I just needed to get out for a bit. I walked to my sisters house and ran on the treadmill (we are storing it at her house). It felt really good to turn up the jams and burn some calories. I am going to stick with it this time. FOR REAL!  I'm not happy with myself and I know nothing negative can come out of working out.

Pretty soon this will be me :

(I can wish)

No big plans this week. Still moving things into the house. M is all registered for swimming lessons that start next week. PUMPED I was a swimmer growing up. I swam from age 5-19 it was my life. I miss it :( I'm hoping to get in better shape so I will wear a swimsuit in public. That way I can swim while M is in lessons.

Have a fab week!! 

The big move

Hello all! We have been way busy moving. M room is all painted and things are starting to come together. We went with a nice mint green color. I will post pics when I take some and get the room all set up.

Being a SAHM has been fun and a challenge. But I am enjoying it. M is crawling!!! It is way cute. watching her little butt go back and forth. This morning I was trying to get ready and it took way longer having to chase her all over the house. Other than that nothing new with us. I will try and post more!!

~B

Day 1

Today was my 1st day of being a stay at home mom. It had it's ups and downs.

UPS

I was not bored all day

I will loose weight chase the kids all day

L (sisters son) makes me smile

I love being home with M. I swear she is growing up right in front of me

I loved not feeling like I HAD to do anything today. I could take my time and do things at my own speed and when I wanted to (well not feed them or change them but you get my point)

CONS

My sisters children both ate dog food

B (sister's daughter) was sick all day

Both kids had enough poop for 44 grown men

All 3 kids peed out of their diapers (it is way warm here and I was giving them tons of water)

Could not get L to take a nap

Overall I would say the day was great. I know I will get the hang of it. But only time will tell.....

** I was going to post pics from the trip but my stupid computer whacks out every time I try**

We made it!

13 hours in the car to Tahoe and back. DONE!! I am in love with Tahoe. The hubs keeps asking if we can move there. LOL Highlights of the trip are:

• We celebrated 3 years of marriage! 
• Hubs family is just odd that is the only way I can put it
• We found the coolest beach. I will be back (I hope to be in a smaller swimsuit next year)
• I almost broke my arm when we almost hit a skunk
• Saw tons of shooting stars
• A mouse is a rat! I do not care how small and cute it might be

I will do a post with pics tomorrow. Hope you had a great weekend!

Funk

I'm in a funk today. M is sick. Temp is 102 and will not stay down and she is teething. It is my last week of work and I had to call in sick yesterday and today to stay home with her. I just feel blah. I need something to get me motivated. We leave for vacation in a week. And really I'm not excited. I think I might break my rule and hit up the mall. I have some things to return and buying something will put me in a better mood. Now if only I could get myself off the couch.

Painting

I have been painting all weekend long. BARF My body hurts. But I am telling my self great way to burn calories. I am trying to figure out what paint color to use in M room. Her room is going to be very very small. Any ideas? Here is her bedding :

Her room also has pink. What color do you think the room should be? I have been thinking a pale pink or teal? We did get some samples and I think the room will glow in the dark with the 2 we picked. Any ideas will be great! 

It is my last week at work!!! PUMPED finally. I cannot wait to walk out of there on Friday knowing I will not go back. It has been a great 6 years at the company I work for. But time to move on and start a new adventure. 

Have a great week!

Dear Nord.strom,

I know I have not been spending my paycheck with you. I am sorry. I have not bought anything in store during the Anniversary sale. But I did order during pre-sale a $200 face brush that I am in love with. If my husband knew it was $200 I think I might be sleeping in the car tonight. The emails you have been sending me are depressing, so many things I want but do not need. Then on top of that you are calling me every other day to remind me you have not seen me yet. All this is telling me is that I have a shopping problem. Thank you for your calls and emails. I have looked back on my spending and have realized I am a shopaholic and I might need to seek rehab. I am not letting myself within 600 feet of the mall for the next few months.

No job = No shopping

With love (and a huge credit card balance)
~B


P.S. The hub already told me I am not allowed to get a part time job with you because I would spend more than I made in a week.

Time to plan

M will be turning 1 at the end of this year. I am going to start planning her big day early.

1. Because I am a planner and want everything perfect.

2. We are watching money. So I plan on making a lot of the items (I'm not very crafty) and I want to try and find good deals.

 What is the theme?? I give you 1 guess. CUPCAKES!!!!!!! I will keep you all updated on the planning. I'm really excited. I might even post pics of my projects in progress. Get ready for tons of fails.

What is new??

I gave my 2 week notice at work today. YIKES!! I'm very excited to be a SAHM and watch my niece and nephew. It will be challenging but I am up for it. I have always wanted to be a SAHM. I do not want to look back on my life in 20 years and look at M and think I wish I tried being a SAHM when she was young. So in 2 weeks a new chapter of my life will start.....

No motivation

I have not started to work out yet. I really need some motivation. We go on vacation in a month. I have no clothing that fits me. I am just really depressed about it. Then today at work I get HORRIBLE news about a coworker, so what do I do? I go to the vending machine and each candy. I eat my emotions. I just need to push myself to start working out. I know I will benefit in every way possible. But how do I start? Any ideas?

Couch to 5K

I am starting couch to 5K tonight. I will give a recap tomorrow from work when I am bored out of my mind. But really I am going to stick to this for the next few weeks. I need to get back in shape and loose weight. Exercise I know is the best way. Everything I have issues with sleep, mood, anxiety, stress and body image will all get a little extra boost in a good way if I work out. So here I go.....

Yes that is the treadmill you see in the back ground folded up. But I just needed my Cold stone. LOL 

Have a great week!!!! 

10 reunion

My high school 10 year reunion is tonight. And well I am not there. I feel sorta bad for not going but really I see the peeps I still care about and who I want to see. There are some people I do not care for seeing. The random run ins where you know you are both acting like you don't see the other person will not work tonight. Also I'm not drinking right now so how will my nerves every get calm enough to talk to people I don't really care how great their life is. Tonight I will be at home chilling with the hubs and baby. So MTHS class of 2000 happy 10 years! I promise I will see you at the 20.

Yippers!

I will be an Iphone mom on Monday! It finally shipped. I cannot wait!

Also on another note. Me and coupon chick got into it today online. I do not think she will be trying to pull a fast one again. LOL Why has my life gotten to this!

Have a great weekend!

Congrats (shoutout)

I just wanted to give a big Congrats to Jennnn for passing the MRI exam. Now it's time to move back home!!! PUMPED

*I think when you get home we will have to get a cupcake and coffee to celebrate!

Dear AT&T

If I do not receive my iphone tomorrow I will not be a happy camper. That is all.

Youbettershipitsoon,
B